Seeing the Blue Puzzle Piece

I see it on the TV screen in the corner of my eye. the blue puzzle. Such a meaningless little thing. Suddenly I know and I do not know why. It is blue like David's eyes. Like the color of his skin Just before he dies. I saw him lying there on the shore. Like that little blue pill that destroyed my life, and the comedown every night. I can see him clearly as I am losing my sense of time. I can see the man in the blue paper suit at the jail and I see his blood is red like the carpet on the floor. I am losing my sense of time. The past distorts the present, the future distorts the past. ( Voice of spock) This type of thinking is illogic, please stop. (with small dog baking in the background with a loudness amplified by a factor 10). And I hear David said come here and I look inside the closet. (voice of 3 year old child) Why? Voice of 6 six year child because it fritens me. ( Voice of spock) This type of thinking is also illogic, please stop. (image of 3 year old child screaming in closet with bright red carpet. in full greenberg effect)(voice of 3 year old child)" don't hug me! don't kiss me! don't touch me! (Image of very skinny 16 year old David standing by the shore with blank look on his face). Now I have that same look on my face as Dr Loobs escorts me to the counselling office I am laughing and repeating I'm fit to proceed, I'm fit to proceed, I'm fit to proceed,...(Image of 8 year old David's chest with a small amount of blood on it) sick feeling in my stomach... Somehow I knew just looking at that one puzzle piece that it was part of the Risperdal marketing campaign and worse, I was right...and worse still I can see all that and more happening at once in less time than it takes to blink an eye. Now that is one weird lense.

Person first language.

For Intelligent people free expression is more important than grammar rules. For Creative people free expression is more important than grammar rules. For Autistic people free expression is more important than grammar rules. For everyone free expression is more important than grammar rules.

New like page forms to help Autistic people define themselves as empathetic loving human beings.

A new like page is starting up to fight bad science and false claims that Autistic people lack empathy. "Autistics are Peaceful" focuses on amazing real life Autistic people who prove that empathy and facial recognition are 2 entirely different things. Here is a link please check it out leave a comment and of course like this page. https://www.facebook.com/pages/Autistics-are-Peaceful/136128676553018

Broken glasses, a thought experiment.

I know such frustration in interacting with the real world, that I decided to take 2 pairs of identical imaginary glasses and break one pair. 1st I imagined to put on the good pair I could see quite clearly and quickly through them and I imagined wearing them. I reached out and grabbed the door on the very first try, every time! I had a perfect shot in basketball, and I never ran into a wall. My reactions where all right on time and I could drive and see where I was going just fine. Than I imagined to put on the broken pair, I missed the imaginary door and when I tried to sit in a chair I hit the flour, realizing it was not there. At first I tried to focus on all the things that just didn't work quite right and I was fully blinded by simple changes in the light. Then I noticed something more, a rainbow of colors I had not seen before! In time I could see things to my side and far away, getting things right could take all day but I understood so many things a person with good glasses never could. I could find a mistake in a second! I was never distracted by the things that they place right in front of a persons face! I could not run quickly but my motions where so unpredictable that I always got away! Please understand that I where my broken glasses everyday and I keep the good pair in my mind safely tucked away. http://mirrorworldsandtimetravel.wordpress.com/