Seeing the Blue Puzzle Piece

I see it on the TV screen in the corner of my eye. the blue puzzle. Such a meaningless little thing. Suddenly I know and I do not know why. It is blue like David's eyes. Like the color of his skin Just before he dies. I saw him lying there on the shore. Like that little blue pill that destroyed my life, and the comedown every night. I can see him clearly as I am losing my sense of time. I can see the man in the blue paper suit at the jail and I see his blood is red like the carpet on the floor. I am losing my sense of time. The past distorts the present, the future distorts the past. ( Voice of spock) This type of thinking is illogic, please stop. (with small dog baking in the background with a loudness amplified by a factor 10). And I hear David said come here and I look inside the closet. (voice of 3 year old child) Why? Voice of 6 six year child because it fritens me. ( Voice of spock) This type of thinking is also illogic, please stop. (image of 3 year old child screaming in closet with bright red carpet. in full greenberg effect)(voice of 3 year old child)" don't hug me! don't kiss me! don't touch me! (Image of very skinny 16 year old David standing by the shore with blank look on his face). Now I have that same look on my face as Dr Loobs escorts me to the counselling office I am laughing and repeating I'm fit to proceed, I'm fit to proceed, I'm fit to proceed,...(Image of 8 year old David's chest with a small amount of blood on it) sick feeling in my stomach... Somehow I knew just looking at that one puzzle piece that it was part of the Risperdal marketing campaign and worse, I was right...and worse still I can see all that and more happening at once in less time than it takes to blink an eye. Now that is one weird lense.